The last time I posted to the blog I mentioned the doctors were considering another CAT scan to check progress of Cindy's cancer. Of course we were hoping and praying another scan would give us good news and we would have even more reason for hope. Following the CAT scan we anticipated more chemotherapy. I'm not sure, however, we were prepared to hear what the doctor had to tell us a few days ago. Our oncologist said she did not see any reason to continue with the chemotherapy as it was no longer affecting the cancer. We have tried numerous drugs and drug combinations and nothing seems to be working to control the growth and spread. Her bilirubin count continues to spiral. This suggests the cancer is aggressively affecting her liver. Needless to say, this was not the news we wanted to hear.

Since last week Cindy has become increasingly more disoriented. We are told all of this is a by-product of her spiraling bilirubin. I will tell you my precious wife seems pleasant and does not appear to have any worries at the moment. She did tell me yesterday in a moment of clarity that she was feeling very weary and tired. I am amazed at how she has dealt with and continues to deal with all that is affecting her body. Cindy is an amazing and godly woman. She is teaching me how to walk through adversity with faith, hope and tenacity. She is showing our boys how to trust God especially when it is difficult.

This week I would ask that you remember Cindy's family in your prayers. Barbara, Cindy's mother has been a real servant, caring for her daughter during the entire struggle. She has been an incredible asset to Cindy and me. Her presence has allowed me to help the boys have some sense of normalcy. Through it all, it has been very difficult for her. No parent should have to witness this sort of struggle. Cancer is a hideous evil that thankfully we will not have to deal with in glory. I look forward to the moment when God gives all of us new bodies and we live together eternally in the new heaven and earth. I have found myself lately for the first time sincerely praying that ancient prayer, "Come quickly, Lord Jesus." I do long for His appearing. However, until God decides to send the Son we will pray and work and trust His sovereign will. Cindy's father arrived in town on Monday evening. I know this is a difficult time for him as well. He and Cindy share a special and extremely close father/daughter relationship. Cindy's brother and grandmother are also with us.

So, for now we continue to pray more fervently than ever for a miracle. Your prayers and words of encouragement on this blog continue to sustain and minister to both of us in powerful ways.

Your fellow struggler,

Kevin